I am sorry that I was unfaithful to my ex-husband. We got divorced, and now I am with a man who is twenty-four years older than I. We have a five-year-old daughter…. He is a good father. He always provides everything for our home. He even meets all the needs of my children from my former marriage. He has proposed to me, but every time we plan to get married, something happens and we don’t go through with it….
I am tired of this. I want to roll back the clock and never have left my ex-husband. I want to have him back, but my love for my daughter keeps me from doing it. I would definitely marry him again. He is now in another relationship, but I know that he still feels something for me, and I still love him.
Wouldn’t it be great to be able to roll back the clock? We could correct all of our mistakes and right all of our wrongs. We could take back things that we should not have said, and we could say things that we wish we had said.
Unfortunately, it doesn’t work that way. Most of us get past our mistakes and move forward, having learned valuable lessons. We ask forgiveness of those whom we have harmed, and we determine to do better the next time around.
Sadly, there are people who don’t seem to learn from their mistakes. They make the same bad choices repeatedly, expecting to get a better result each time.
You were married with children, but you chose to be unfaithful, probably because you were dissatisfied with your ex-husband at the time. You now regret your unfaithfulness because it led to your divorce.
Currently, you are with a much older man, but you don’t mention loving him. We don’t know if he is the same man that you were unfaithful with, or if he is a third man in the story of your life. Either way, you are now dissatisfied again. Doesn’t it seem like you are always wanting a different man, no matter which man you are with?
We believe that you should not be living with any man to whom you are not married, but we also would advise you not to marry any man whom you don’t love. The man that you say you do love, your ex-husband, probably suffered greatly from your betrayal and has now moved on to another relationship. But we have no way of knowing if it is just wishful thinking that tells you that he still cares about you in spite of everything you did to him.
The root of all your problems is that you are searching for a love that will fill the emptiness in your soul. But the only love that can give you true satisfaction is the love of God, and the only way to experience the love of God is by having a personal relationship with Him through His Son Jesus Christ. Jesus has already paid the penalty for all your bad choices and sins, and He offers you a love that will satisfy. Say yes to His offer, and then He will help you make the other decisions.
We wish you the best,